Week before Midsummer 2006...

Our week has started out kind of cloudy and is proving awful at this point. Husband is experiencing high stress right now, and with everything we're committed to, he's just beside himself. I'm beginning to think we're going to cancel some of our activities during his shutdown and let him be. I'm starting to break down myself a little as it's proving more and more exhausting making everything easier for him. I know I can keep going, but I really hope something changes soon.

Sometimes I wonder which life is harder, working out of the home, or working in the home with family/home/business. I wonder what things would be like if we switched roles...I don't know any guy who is a stay-at-home hubby, anyone reading this know anyone where the roles are reversed? And would it work out for the better if I went out and got something instead of him? Problem is, my education is not finished...his is finished...and I'm not sure if I could find something as well paying as his. Once my education is finished, I can easily work as a Holistic pracitioner (my ambition, anyways were I to have a "9-5"). And when that day comes, I will offer to switch roles with him. This is not a relaxed, light-work lifestyle...but it is not as high-stressed as is current situation. Though, he will most likely have left his current place of work since my education will probably take 3 years or more to finish. I don't intend to take it too far as much of what I'll study will be learned away from a university (which is typically funded with government help...)...but this is what part of my services will be on our homestead (hence the herbal/sewing business, which I'm leaving to herbs now). Anyhow...since I seem to jump from topic to topic.

With my new eating lifestyle, there wasn't an exaggeration on the part about being tired as the transition goes through...my body is going through a slight detox, and I feel it. We went for a walk today, and I'm just exhausted. On top of that, my monthly has not come...I'm not currently sure if it is due to the body change or because of...ahem...something else. *sighs* Should make for a fun camping trip this week. I'm really hoping that it helps husbands nerves. I'm definitely looking forward to it on multiple levels, though I hope I can keep up on those trails!!! ;)

Well, I'm going to leave off on those thoughts.